Ooh guys I miss y'all so much. -overflowed hearts- 

I kinda loved the new updated instasize app filters. It gives a pretty..... woody finish. Hehehe. 

It's atas brunch at Príve, CHIJMES. with a few of the BWL peeps after BWL. I appreciate times like this where everyone of us - ablaze/ poly/ adults can come together and share the good and the struggles we face in each of our lives. 

Hehehe. 

****** 

Enough of struggling Reg. 

And stop despising what you're going through. 

A much needed meetup with my two ex-LGLs penetrated a sharp-direct truth into my heart, where it seemed too familiar, as tho I ever heard it before from God himself, yet at that point of time it got too foreign to even get into my heart. 

Or maybe I got rly proud, 

I expected God to give me what I want, rather than allowing Him to choose whats best for me. 

My needs vs My wants. 

Mom always tell me: I will only buy for you what you need. If they are wants then buy it with your own money. 

And thus putting into context, 

God's abilities vs My own abilities 

We all know how limited our abilities are. We all know how sovereign His hands are. 

And we all know how much more we need to rely on Him because He sees our future, He plans the best things for us. 

So we need to stop dealing with uncertainties on our own, and hang on to Him. 

Last Wed/Thu Bible seminar and ytd's sermon hit me hard. Got me reminded on how much uncertainties I have in my life because I started dealing with it in my own ways. 

And when I finally got the chance to decide for myself my next step in life, I decided to choose a decision that allows escapism in my life. 

Yet God was sovereign enough. Instead of allowing me to head astray from His well-planned direction, He sent vessels to speak these truths into my life. 

11 For I know the plans I have for you,” declares the Lord, “plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future. 

Jeremiah 29:11 

A very common bible verse up there ^ People always use this to encourage others who are going through tough times or uncertain times. 

But you know when God claims that He knows the plans for us, even if we make a detour to run away from the direction he is heading us to, even if we are running circles just to escape from it, God still turned it for our good. 

He still brings us back to the rightful path we are suppose to be in. 

I may not understand why now, but I believe in future I will. 

But for now I pray that I will embrace seasons that God puts in me with a willing heart and do what He calls me to do. 

God, I pray for others out there that are facing similar issues, that they will trust it too.