Lemme me this for a moment  ^ 

Soaked in comfy comfort. 

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Remain in me, as I also remain in you. No branch can bear fruit by itself; it must remain in the vine. Neither can you bear fruit unless you remain in me. John 15:4

And it all started with I can't, they can. 

I'm not good enough, ask someone else. 

I'm not efficient enough, find someone else.

My opinion's not good enough, get another solution. 

Just how many people could relate with me on this. How many people fall into zero self-confidence and low self-esteem each time someone "better" comes into the picture. It has always been the case for me since young, and the more I thought myself as a failure, the more I find security in striving to achieve things that I don't really want to, but just for the world to see that I can. 

And then the same inadequacy was brought forth into my christian life. Just as I thought I could be myself and admit in my iniquities, stay the way I am, just be the every-saturday-church-girl and enjoy being a Daddy's little girl in God's embrace, the more God challenge me to do things, the more He pushes me out of my comfort, beyond my imagination, beyond my line of self-confidence. 

And proving to me how inadequate I really am, but how adequate He is. 

How disabled I am, but how enabled He is. 

How much I can't do things by myself, but how sovereign is His hands upon me when I work. 

And when we bring glory to Him each time we obeyed His commands, He proves to us this very powerful item that we now possess: 

for the LORD will be your confidence and will keep your foot from being snared. Proverbs 3:26

Not a self-confidence, but a Christ-confidence. 

We possess this confidence, unique only when we are willing to let go, and let God. 

Still there are times I tell God "cannot lah God i sure cannot do it", the more I feel compelled to do it. 

Okay God, I'll try. 

Because again, it's not about me. 

It's about You, Lord.