God, I'm unsure, and pretty much know how limited my abilities are. 

But I definitely know how sovereign you are over my iniquities, my doubts, my struggles. 

When you call, I will go. and I will try. 

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Many many occasions when we are dealing with issues that complicates our life. 

We needed God's assurance, God's comfort.

But sometimes, we just couldn't hear God. 

And then we start dwelling into the devil's scheme that God left us. He doesn't want us anymore.. 

But what I believed was that 

 God sometimes does choose to remain silent. But thats because He loves us. 

(like the issue Job has)

But perhaps, maybe sometimes God isn't silent at all. 

Maybe sometimes... our hearts are filled with so much commotion, that we couldn't hear His still small voice. 

I was journalling and pouring out all of my "what ifs" and my "buts", trying to make simple yet uncomfortable (yes i complicated it myself) decisions. And God took me dwelling onto the simplicity of our christian faith with one image: the filter/ infiltrator. 

Maybe at some point in time, we got to filter away all our issues and thoughts, and focus on the only One.