Daily Journal

Or maybe rather I was expecting a much nicer burger for that price. $14.90 for a burger smaller than a mcspicy, totally not worth it :(

Annoying Joel with that annoying pose hehe. But thank God for the meet up last Thursday with my precious TP TREE! I really miss their nonsense and their noises :( It makes me not wanna end the day even though it was alr 11pm. I really miss them....they make me young again. Hehe.

Snip snip snip, and we snipped our hair off together last Friday. Like some auntie standing in the middle of nowhere just to choose a salon out of the 2 choices that are available, and that shocking moment when the hairdresser whipped up a shaver. .____.

Fellowship over dinner at Bedok's market. Another fellowship that I didn't want to end the day with :( So much to share, so much to catch up esp with Jasmine!! I can't imagine life.... if I happen to choose to go uni this year instead of taking a gap year. Everything will be different, life will be different, struggles will be different, blessings would be different, but who knows. When God says gap year is the route, then I will have to trust that it is the best route for me ya? I went home that night with a lot of brooding, but I'm glad it's all sorted and over with in my heart. Hehehe. Love them to the moon and back!

So happy that le-fellow LG members are serving BWL with me ytd morning wahahaha. It feels good to know that people I know are waking up early just to serve the elderlys for God ^_^ Whenever I look at the elderlys, I looked at them in a different way. These ahmas and ahgongs are also children of God. And that... gives a completely different heartbeat of serving.

Luv this auntie many many! My pillar of support during this transition period. Always making my day with her being so transparent in her thoughts and feelings (even with her complains hehe)

Could anyone of you relate to me, that sometimes when we tell ourself "this is awkward", and you became really awkward in an unfamiliar environment? How about a time when we overheard bad stuff about a person and you tell yourself "he/she must be no good" and you start to have a complete change in the way you look at him/her. And a time where a sister received a word for you to place trust in God, and from then onwards you realise your tough situation came in a complete turn. Or one day you had a breakthrough and you tell yourself "i must love him/her", someone who you once hated, and from then onwards your relationship with him/her got better.

"But The Lord said to Samuel, "Do not consider his appearance or his height, for I have rejected him. The Lord does not look at the things people look at. People look at the outward appearance, but the Lord looks at the heart"

I always tell God to give me more than what I can do in my current situation and ability, so that I know that it is God. But yet whenever I was convicted to do so, my heart turned me away from doing God's work. Because of awkwardness, fear of judgement, not getting out of the comfort zone. And last night when I was brooding over what happened after service I came across Proverbs 4:23, which reminded me again to look into my heart, and see what had gone wrong, to change it, to repent, and then try it again.