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Regina K
21; Holding a Diploma in HTM I love coffee-art and colours Have an interest in photography, but don't exactly have the talent :P ******* I pen down things worthy to remember. Even with the toughest struggles in life. Because when I read back in future, I will remember and know that God has brought me through I have decided to follow Jesus! No turning back Credits
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SSM was better than what I expected, though I was feeling miserable when my fingers hurt while practicing how to hold the plates. Mr Goh wasn't as fierce as I thought he would, and the rest of the tutors were nice. Lectures and tutorials with the new class was totally unfamiliar. I really missed the 09 clique, and I missed their laughter and nonsense. I missed them so much I realise I began to dread school but yet anticipating lunch breaks with them.  Went back Broadrick for Speech Day last Friday. Totally missed the life I once enjoyed in these familiar environment. The life spent being best friends with OYL since the first day of school, with DPPGs, and lastly with FRYKK. Best holiday spent with Ling, Feng Ling and KN although the outings may be a little dry, but I felt in place with them. ^.^ Heart to heart talk at the playground with Ivan and Min Ming gave me a sudden realisation that I ain't living the way I want to live. I've been constantly searching for the life I want, but what do I end up with? I'm like an empty shell and have yet to find anything to fill the shell. Apparently I realised I've got nothing interesting in life that I can share with my friends, and this is how empty and monotonous my life is. For the fear of hatred and detest, I tried my best to live a life such that nobody would hate me, or detest me, being cautious in everything I do. I've been constantly filling up my mind whether there are people who dislike certain aspects of me and how I could improve myself. But is that what I really liked? I need to be myself, in order to enjoy life. Quotes always say "if they can't accept for whom you are, they ain't your true friends". But how many people out there are true? :/ Okay something is wrong with me. I need to chill. |